Well, first things first…since I’ve been away for a while, I need to bring y’all back up to speed as to what’s going on here (or what *has* been going on here) but I figured I’d mix that in with more current stuff on my pointy head; simpler than trying to do one completely and then the other. I’ll tag the old news Throwback so you can see it all in one group if you want to, and Go On with the rest as it happens.
I will say that the major contributors to this drop-from-sight were due to my CLL, which is otherwise not getting worse. This includes:
- A very slow-to-heal wound in my left foot that kept getting infected, throwing me into the hospital for 3-5 days each time for heavy-duty IV antibiotics
- Major foot surgery related to that that came from my left foot having major chunks taken out of it that were infected, including the 5th metatarsal bone, which first required months in a rehab nursing home to get me up and going again – and now, messes me up majorly on balance and walking. It’s now much more a chore to walk around, and my weird gait has gotten some substantial complaints from my leg and back muscles – right now, I’m on muscle relaxants to un-twist things in my legs, which had gotten horribly painful.
- chronic ill / tired episodes, exacerbated by (1) and (2) above, which led to me not getting things done in any sort of schedule and made me feel really overwhelmed which led to depression (and me going into a spiral on same). Yadda yadda.
- Who wants to write endlessly about all of the above, which have swallowed your life whole? And if you did, with all the stuff you have to do/dig through that has built up, can you justify the time involved?
I’ve been able to toss out some stuff for Facebook, but it’s almost all been light stuff I can toss off without a lot of time or thought. I miss doing something with some meat on it.
Over the last ten days or so, I’ve been feeling moderately rocky – and over this weekend, *very* rocky. I’m really not sure what’s going on, but it’s gotten bad enough that I’m going in to see my GP doctor to see if she has a clue.
Early on stuff – a really bad heartburn that I chalked up to having drunk way too many cups of coffee and glasses of cola for the caffeine jolt – my ADD meds had run out, and I was having a lot of trouble being productive. That sort of upset has happened several times in the past when I did something similar, and this one was bad. So I laid off coffee and pop, and shunned things that were spicy, acid or tough to get down, and ate more yogurt and the like. As I did, the problems started to recede…
A little later, I started to notice other things happening; shortness of breath, lack of energy, way lower ability to deal with heat – sweating like mad and quick energy loss. Since I had a new prescription for the ADD meds filled on Thursday, all this went off the charts, and half of Saturday and all of Sunday, the problems with shortness of breath really kicked in – *any* effort to do stuff made me out of breath and energyless. I managed with difficulty to put away lunch leftovers and gather and run a tub of dishes, over several hours, and it really knocked me on my keister.
By mid-afternoon Sunday, it was pretty clear that I was seriously ill in some manner, and took my temperature – normal. I got on the Internet and set up an appointment with my GP doctor for 11 am on Monday, and can Elle’s my other commitments for Monday, including work.
A couple of really dire thoughts – a major change with my leukemia or cancer of the esophagus – came through my mind, but I just don’t know WTF is going on.
Father’s Day is coming, and the assembled family types want my wish list, so here it is:
- I desperately need a new wallet and belt; both have been beat to pudding. Something roughly similar would work; this wallet on Amazon looks decent, and the belt (new) has to be shorter than this one- as I’ve lost weight, I now have way too much slack at the end.
- In the very near future, I will have to get a new pair of swimming trunks. Nice idea.
- In the near future, I’m finally expanding on my Radio interests, and my first step is to get an antenna set up outside for the shortwave/AM/FM setup. Need an antenna to hear things better on whatever device you have.
- I also want to get a SDR Radio – a new type of radio that enables you to see what’s on…it samples the *entire* band of frequencies constantly and you run it through a PC; you’ll see a ‘waterfall’ of what’s on now in that section of the universe, and tuning to the right thing is a serious snap. An example of this is a radio set up for public use by students at the University of Twente in the Netherlands (the link is a live control for the radio, which can be simultaneously used by hundreds of users for free), and fooling with that site at odd times has *really* stirred me up to return to my radio roots – to the point of getting my Ham license. I stalled on that for decades because my brain can’t process Morse Code nohow no way.
Note: I have a reasonably decent standard shortwave set, but the SDR radio I’m looking at getting is this one or (if I can learn to build a kit) this much cheaper one. (Also, the cheaper one doesn’t cover longwave or Mediumwave / AM Broadcast, which doesn’t thrill me.) Of course, that radio’s a serious chunk of change – rather put money into the antenna first.
- I need a voice recording microphone; I’ve had two of these, and they were too fragile and too difficult to fool with. Something like this would be far nicer.
Other than that, I really don’t know. Experiential things, really – a vacation to someplace I’d really want to go to, like back to Ohio with the family or to places like Ashfall State Park in Nebraska. From a doing things with family direction, that’s the sort of thing that I’d find fun. I’ve gotten out of here so seldom…
My family used to despair that all I was interested in were books and DVDs. I mean, I could use some pine or cedar soaps, but I take care of myself on the book and DVD end of things anymore, and I don’t ask. Lot more fun doing things and going places, in general. I have most of the things I want or need.
Dangitt, now I have 'Havah Nagiilah' stuck in my head as an earworm!!